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Unless the answer is "time turners", I wish to punch this schedule in the face.

Tue, 08 May 2012 18:57:36 GMT

Today, in "pip's school refuses to make sense" - my (theoretical) schedule for next semester.

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And that's the most sensible iteration of the schedule. If I choose a few different sessions, I can have up to four classes at the same time, with up to three different professors, in up to four different places.

I cannot comprehend what is actually going to be the answer.

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Thu, 03 May 2012 02:55:11 GMT

Have managed to lose entire pack of scantrons, minus two, in less than a week. Not in car, not in school bag, not in bedroom, not in tv room, not in bathroom cabinet, not in scout bag, not in dance bag, not in hiking pile (which is not currently in a bag). Currently suspecting I maybe threw them out accidentally? Last seen Thursday, in my car.

Have also managed to lose water bottle. BLUE AND CIRCLES. (what, that's its name.) (also a good description. if you speak pip, that is.) I am rather disproportionately upset about this. I mean, I paid $1.50 for it, but apparently I am emotionally attached to it. (Less surprising than I would like.) Last seen Friday, in my car.

need all of these things! I guess I buy more scantrons tomorrow on my way to the exam, but jfc, my water bottle.

WAIT I JUST FOUND THEM BOTH. they were. under my umbrella. in the portion of the closet where the vacuum is found instead of my things. THESE THINGS HAPPEN OKAY. alternatively, WTF WERE YOU DOING, PIP.

no im not huggin my water bottle right now go away

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in which cut tags are used to great effect

Tue, 24 Apr 2012 00:12:55 GMT

Things it is apparently frowned upon to exclaim about at the dinner table: ( reproductive anatomy facts. ) It is not, however, frowned upon to study at the dinner table instead of making conversation. My parents, they are nothing alike.

I drove today past a sign that said FF HOTDOGS $1.69 and was confused. things I am accustomed to ff standing for: Firefly, fuck, Follow Friday. None of these make sense in a hotdog context.

( If I have any Flame members thinking about the post-June mod structure on my flist, this is for you. )

Semester report: 3 tests and 3 exams remaining. 4 days of classes, 2 days of exams remaining. (230 possible procrastination hours remaining. Bring it. *turns on tv*)

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About 100 Things | #001-002: Dana Scully & Fox Mulder (X-Files)

Thu, 19 Apr 2012 20:08:16 GMT

( About )

These will probably contain some amount of spoilers. If it's anything recent or anything I know someone on my flist is in the middle of watching, I'll try to watch & warn for specific spoilers. Better safe than sorry if you really care about it, though.

( 001: Dana Scully (The X-Files) )

( 002: Fox Mulder (The X-Files) )

And with that, I'm offline for the weekend - camping with 60+ small children.

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not zoned for cornflakes

Tue, 17 Apr 2012 22:47:34 GMT

+ Today, as I was wandering around the middle of town lost (what? I usually use the edges!), I got behind a truck with an SG-1 sticker on the back. ENVY. LUST. GREED. ALL THOSE OTHER SINS.

+ "wallop" and "trollop" are not words you want to get mixed up

+ There was a toad on my trunk when I got out of class. It blinked at me, croaked, and politely hopped over to the next car when I insisted on it moving so I could avoid feeling bad driving away from underneath it.

+ ( Complaining time! )

+ I also realized at 2:00 that I'd left home without my wallet. Which means it hasn't been in my car since ... Thursday? Fantastic! This is why it lives in my car. (but I did find my lost debit card. It finally came out the bottom of my seat-crack. That only took four days. Oi.)

+ And today I got to grump about the word "hermaphrodite" to a room full of 30 people who couldn't escape. It was a good three-minute "ur doin it rong" monologue that also covered pH, the phrenic nerve (for the last time, it is NOT connected to genitalia, where did you even get that idea), and prostate vs prostrate. Have now ruined reputation of "quiet kid who sits in the back and doesn't pay attention." Also had chance to perfect grumpy glare, thanks to those who still argued that a low pH means you need to ingest more pH. Please, tell me, where can I find some pH to ingest?

+ Today I have repeatedly confused Sam Carter for Sam Seaborn.

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reason #384 I maybe shouldn't ever live alone

Wed, 21 Mar 2012 02:16:56 GMT

Lose phone. Look around alone. Go downstairs, ask landlady to call it, go back upstairs to listen for it. Hear phone. Search wildly where phone is heard. Believe it is under cookies. Move cookies. Do not find phone. Ask landlady to call it again, hear phone again, move cookies again, still do not find phone. Landlady comes upstairs and calls it once more, then finds it for me

...

in the package of cookies.

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you'd best sing it

Tue, 13 Mar 2012 18:41:38 GMT

happy birthday to me:
bearmonster hoodie!
didn't buy it for a thousand years,
but my partner loves me!

(alternate ending: too warm to put it on / buzz buzz say the bees)

*bakes cookies*

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signal boosts & meta linkspam

Sat, 10 Mar 2012 00:39:09 GMT

rainbow_support is a fandom auction intended to raise funds for a variety of LGBTQIA (lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, queer/questioning, intersex, asexual) charities to support them. All winning bids will go to the organizations actively working to better the lives of the community, individually and as a whole and to organizations that are actively working to support and promote LGBTQIA rights. FAQs at this link. Offers open now; bidding runs March 22-29.

from bremoisaho at month_of_meta: Make It Meta will be an e-magazine that will be published using the free e-mag publishing site Issuu and plans to include meta about the issues and from a variety of fandoms. We also plan to include some fan art. More information here.

from pippin at junetide: get your june on - Sign-ups for Junetide 2012 open this weekend! Junetide is an Original Works Gift Exchange. It is inspired by Yuletide and Yuletart, but is based around original works rather than fanworks. Both art and fiction are welcome! All genres and styles are welcome!
here is the one I wrote for Junetide 2011

from sophia_gratia: consentfest: prompts list - also don't forget that you don't have to write for a prompt! all consent is awesome consent.

and I am still asking the audience about gender dysphoria stuff.

( links to various metas I have been liking recently )

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ask the audience: gender dysphoria information

Wed, 07 Mar 2012 15:49:07 GMT

Okay, everybody. Some of you know that I am doing a presentation in my psych class on the Gender Dysphoria diagnosis. Some of you know that I am also sort of ignoring the actual guidelines for this presentation in order to give more than the basic 101-from-the-textbook on this.

( short details on what the presentation includes so far )

So what I'm asking from you is (hopefully) simple:
- Is there anything you wish people would know about gender dysphoria / being trans* / getting a GD diagnosis / anything else that could possibly be shoved into this presentation?
- Is there anything you wish you knew, or had known sooner, about gender dysphoria / being trans* / getting a GD diagnosis / anything else that could possibly be shoved into this presentation?
- Do you have any strong feelings on any terms / phrases / ideas that should or should not be included in any of the existing topics?

Comments are screened, anon is enabled, please do link this far and wide - binary & nonbinary, trans* & nontrans*, anybody & everybody. I'd like to see as many thoughts as I can, though since the presentation does have a time limit (and underage students in the classroom), I may not be able to include everything.
(And yes, I am planning a writeup (or three) on my blog about it. So it's not just for one class.)

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signal boost: dealing with google

Wed, 29 Feb 2012 23:20:48 GMT

from arduinna: Google and privacy and alternatives: giant post o' doom - In the unlikely event that people haven't heard about Google's new privacy policy, going into effect on March 1: it will merge any Google accounts you have and link them into one account under one privacy policy.

A good explanation of what the privacy policy actually says (and seriously? raise your hand if you've read the whole thing. and notice that my hands are firmly down) as well as some steps you can take to protect your privacy, both if you choose to stay with Google products and if you choose to break away completely.

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Consentfest 2012 (signal boost)

Sun, 19 Feb 2012 19:44:40 GMT

YOU GUYS IT'S HAPPENING.

This fest is about thinking about and celebrating consent of all kinds, including, but not limited to, sexual consent. I really want to encourage creations that are about a wide range of forms of consent, creations that celebrate consent-gone-well in any context.

pre-fest chatter and loose purpose statement @ DW; @ LJ || timeline, format, guidelines, etc @ DW; @ LJ || prompts post @ DW; @ LJ

YAY.

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linky links

Sat, 04 Feb 2012 23:53:46 GMT

March's Carnival of Aces call for submissions is up at grasexuality - topic is Sexual Exploration.

Hoerrenda has posted February's Carnival of Aces post roundup - topic was Re/Presentation.

I've boosted fund_jcollins before, but now with specifics! I am offering:
beta reading/editing of fanfiction or original works - Starting bid: $3
Fiction to winners' specifications, multifandom or original - Starting bid: $5; Buy It Now: $20
5 crocheted hats, shipping limited to US & Canada, all on this post - Starting bid: $5; Buy It Now: $25, each hat

Other than these things, I have spent all day reading fic and the DSM intermittently. (okay, and the five hours i was out running errands and whatnot.) Is probably time to be slightly more productive. Or eat dinner. Yes, that one. FOOOOD.

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signal boost: charity auction

Fri, 03 Feb 2012 17:53:20 GMT

fund_jcollins: Online auction to benefit the Jim Collins Foundation, whose mission is to provide financial assistance to transgender people for gender-confirming surgeries.

I'm about to go out for a while, but at some point this weekend, I'll be adding some offers under crafts, writing, and (beta) services.

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signal boost: love meme

Thu, 02 Feb 2012 19:53:59 GMT

love meme at dingsi's!

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Porn Battle time again!

Sun, 29 Jan 2012 16:06:01 GMT

Prompts: Sunday 29th January - Thursday 2nd February 2012
Battle: Sunday 5th - 19:00 UK time Monday 13th February 2012

Porn Battle on AO3 | Question Post on LJ or Question Post on DW | Beta Post on LJ or Beta Post on DW | Prompt post on LJ or Prompt post on DW | 'Special' prompts post on LJ or 'Special' prompts post on DW |Website | FAQ | Link buttons

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circle updates

Mon, 16 Jan 2012 17:59:29 GMT

Have removed people who no longer exist or haven't updated in (an arbitrary amount of time approaching a year) and whatnot. If you think I removed you when I shouldn't have, let me know. (it is not unheard of for me to click the wrong box and accidentally remove someone awesome instead of the vacated journal directly above them in the list.) Comments screened.

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sexuality != gender: a small confused rant

Wed, 11 Jan 2012 20:35:21 GMT

In the past four weeks, I have had meatspace discussions with four completely different people at four completely different times, all about nonbinary genders, and only one of these people grasped what to me is a very simple concept: that gender and sexuality are not inherently the same thing.

I am extremely tired of being told that I'm not talking about gender identities - I'm talking about bisexuality! Because no, I'm not. At no point did I mention sexuality or romanticality or even platonic sleeping-with-someone that you could get confused and think is sexytiems.

I am even more tired of, after explaining that it isn't bisexuality at all, being told to "go look it up, you'll see." EXCUSE ME WHAT. You, who had never heard the term "nonbinary gender" before ten minutes ago, are suddenly enough of an expert to know what I will encounter when I look it up? (As a point of fact, when I googled "nonbinary genders" just now and glanced at the first few pages of results, not a single one of them made any sort of link to bisexuality, excepting a couple that said things along the lines of 'nonbinary folk can have a sexual identity that may or may not be bisexual or something else'.) And I, who am telling you about it, who have already told you that I'm nonbinary, am wrong.

Have come to the conclusion that people really want me to be bisexual. (See icon to discover exactly what that looks like to me.)

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The Porn Compass Challenge

Mon, 19 Dec 2011 21:49:55 GMT

So I found myself ~~complaining about~~ gleefully extolling the virtues of the Porn Compass this morning, which invariably ends in trying to convince someone to write purposeful porn compass fic. And this time I was almost successful! I was basically told that if I hosted some sort of fic-clichés challenge, I would get my porn compass fic. Seeing as how I also love clichés, it was pretty easy sell. So I'm hosting some sort of fic clichés challenge. Which I have never done before.

So let's muddle through this together, and let's also pretend it's comment fic because I don't have the time or energy to deal with anything else just now. Panfandom and whatnot; feel free to advertise and spread anywhere you want. The world needs more tropes and clichés: fact.

on dw (0 prompts, 0 fics) | on lj (1 prompt, 0 fics)

how to prompt: Leave a comment with FANDOM: TROPE in the subject line and any other sort of information you want in the body. (Pairing, more notes on the trope, whatever.) Any Fandom is a completely acceptable fandom. Any Trope is a completely acceptable trope. (Perhaps we shouldn't put both of them out there in the same prompt, though.)

how to answer a prompt: Write fic! Post it as a reply to the prompt. If it fits in a comment (or two), you can post it in a comment (or two). If it fits in more than two comments, please post it to your own journal or whatever and then leave a comment with a teaser and a link to the full fic. Your subject line or first line of the comment (followed by white space) should state any triggers or spoilers in your fic. If you write for an Any Fandom prompt, please be sure your subject line says which fandom you wrote in.

Anything else? I'm not putting a lot of thought into this, so let me know.

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netflix: yer makin shit up

Sun, 27 Nov 2011 06:15:36 GMT

netflix suggestions are sort of hilarious. it suggests that I might like Tangled, seeing as how I have already rated that I like it. good job, netflix! it also suggests that I would like a Swedish film about gay men ... because I like Doctor Who. absolutely the same thing! (incidentally, I do think I would like said film. but. not really related to doctor who in the slightest?) also because I like Doctor Who: How Smart Are Animals, a documentary. makes me giggle.

although I like best that I will like a documentary called Bees: Tales from the Hive because I like Stargate Atlantis.

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We all know I get carried away with bananagrams, okay?

Thu, 24 Nov 2011 04:25:56 GMT

See, I was going to do a big Atlantis one like I do sometimes. Only then I used a ton of tiles just to make Rodney because ... I'm crazy. And then I was like "oh look Daniel Jackson just sitting in front of me, I'd better throw him in; anyway he was on an Atlantis!" And then I connected Evan Lorne to Daniel Jackson, and then I realized I could totally ship them if I only tried a little bit, and then it went from there. And got named Slash Me Sideways as I continued to make SG1/SGA crossover pairings that I could actually believe. (and then I was running low on tiles and high on justification for these pairings so this is what you get!)

( yes I am going to justify all these pairings SO THERE )

CARRIED AWAAAAAAAY. so easily. I love bananagrams. both properly and improperly.
(someone feel free to write some of this fic for me, okay.)

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If anybody particularly loves reading about my gender & sexuality rambles

Thu, 17 Nov 2011 05:36:19 GMT

So I made a blog for, um, citation purposes (don't even ask, weird things happen sometimes, I don't like to cite myself and I don't like to cite things on dreamwidth unless I have no choice) and then decided that since it existed, I should use it for other things too. Hobbit Activism exists on Wordpress. I am sure if you are more skilled than me, you can create a feed and follow it on dw or lj. (I am not sure how I manage to get that wrong every time. You wouldn't think.)

Anyway, there you go, if you want to read or not, enjoy.

(as a side note I also have my food blog on wordpress. and I am linking my family to that one. and my family, by and large, cannot handle queer things. therefore, while I don't mind if you link food blog to activisting blog, I would prefer if any mention of activism stayed off of food. if you remember. thank you!)

first time I have tagged anything on the create entries beta page and you guys? I love it. I love the whole page. I can't get over it. I am still head over heels for Dreamwidth. I guess it's not going away?

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a few (18?) quick fic recs

Thu, 27 Oct 2011 14:01:07 GMT

I was doing something fancy once but then I gave up and now I have a bunch of recs sitting in a ~~drawer~~ file and also another one today SO HERE, have some recs. Fandoms represented: Harry Potter, Sherlock BBC, Stargate Atlantis, Stargate SG-1, Doctor Who/Torchwood, In Plain Sight, Burn Notice, White Collar, X-Files, and maybe a little bit of Leverage if you squint.

Of Like Minds
Author: _rubber_chicken
Fandom: Harry Potter/Sherlock BBC crossover AU
Rating: PG
Author Summary/Notes: In which Harry has a problem, and Sherlock offers some unexpected advice. [extensive author's notes; see entry]
Rec Notes: I, too, noticed long ago that Cumberbatch's Sherlock sounded an awful lot like Alan Rickman. (I, too, was pleased by this realization.) I can't help but love the weirdness of this AU, not to mention how well it's set up for never explicitly setting it up. Small details like cell phones in Hogwarts just make it happen.

( more recs! recs from the past! )

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145 Stargate icons [SG1 & SGA]

Fri, 07 Oct 2011 17:45:21 GMT

YES 145 OKAY. There was a challenge on stargateland that involved making 40 and, well, I lost count? (I didn't lose count. I named them with numbers so I wouldn't lose count. But I did get a little carried away.) I love alternate universes and timelines. And 200. Not sure if that technically counts as AU but it's in here anyway, enjoy. I could have kept going on these icons and had at least 200 (and I might do more later) but then I started thinking about what a pain it was going to be to post them all. So I ~~made 20 more, then~~ quit making icons and started uploading them.

Take what you like, credit it so other people can find the rest of the icons, change if however you like or ask me to change it; if it has more than one layer, I (usually) have the psd file, so changing is easy for either one of us. Whatever whatever. Icons!

( seriously 145, that's nearly as many as icons I have made in total the whole rest of my life. )

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Asexuality & Genderqueer...itude

Fri, 07 Oct 2011 03:54:44 GMT

(I can make up words if I want to. My zucchini says so.)
This post is pulling triple duty: gq fonsfaq delayed fill, this month's carnival of aces [gender], and a thing I just want to talk about anyway.

This is a topic that's been stewing in my head for a very long time, and the answer just hit me last night - my gender and my sexuality have absolutely no direct correlation.

But they do have a pretty huge indirect correlation: it's not that I'm genderqueer, it's that I'm transqueer. It's not that my gender is summed up by gourmet campfire cooking and whittling crochet hooks, it's that my sex doesn't match up to that gender. If I have dysphoria with regards to my bits, then why would I be particularly eager to use them in the first place? And since my body never developed that particular desire, my brain never developed the "ooh pretty person" desires.

I've been on a lovely journey into my identity for the past few years, and I don't feel a need to go into all the gory details, but suffice to say: I can tell you today with relative certainty that if my trans* status were other than it is, I could become a sexual person. I'm not repulsed by sex as it is; I'm just beyond uninterested in purposeful dysphoria for the sake of another's happiness¹. I do not seek out sex because it is, more often than not, that exercise in purposeful dysphoria. Every now and then, there's a person with whom I'm more comfortable than usual - and every time that happens, it is because I know that the person thinks of me as a pip before a person with a set of typically-female genitalia. And it's because ou knows that I have that sex-triggered dysphoria. And it's because ou cares that I have that sex-triggered dysphoria. And it's because ou tries not to trigger it that ou can get further with that whole sex thing. I still won't seek it out, but it's a matter of comfort. I want to make you happy, but not at the cost of my own safety, be it physical or mental.

Back when the FONSFAQ was new, chibifukurou asked about separating sexual attraction, romantic attraction, and gender. I've talked about why it works better for me for my partner to separate gender from attraction(s). I've talked at other times about why it's nice when sexual and romantic attractions are separated. But how to separate? For me, it's easy. I don't experience sexual attraction², so there's nothing to make separating out romantic attraction (from sexual) difficult (though there's always the "romantic vs friendshipy" conversation). My gender doesn't influence my attractions, except that I don't feel the pressure to be 'straight' that many cis people seem to; perhaps this doesn't change to whom I am attracted, but it does make me much more open about it. And when I'm looking at a particular person, ou gender doesn't influence my feelings towards ou any more than ou hair color. Insofar as gender expression tends to be indicative of general personality traits, it's a handy basic indicator of compatibility - I am not often close to very feminine people³, though that's hardly a reason to flat ignore anything else we might have in common.

Gender identity and sexual orientation: they're complicated shit, you guys. They're irrevocably intertwined in ways people don't always realize about themselves, but they're completely separate ideas at the same time. It fascinates me to no end and I will never get tired of hearing people talk about their own experiences and thoughts. (And I'm fascinated to see how many nonbinary aces speak up this month.)

1. I do realize how ridiculous this sounds, in light of the people to whom I am not explicitly out. There's a difference, but don't ask me to explain it.
2. I get told off on this point regularly. It is very definition-dependent and way too complex to go into now or possibly ever. For our purposes, I don't experience sexual attraction at all ever.
3. Which is again related to gender dysphoria! Hooray!

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combatting language: "wind up alone"

Sun, 18 Sep 2011 04:52:29 GMT

I was going to be awesome about [the writing of] this, but it's late and I'm tired and my knee hurts. (The only reason I am still up is ice.) Have some rambled thoughts. Or, just one pretty short one.

One thing that I see a lot in asexual discourse* is the fear that one will "wind up alone" after all the sexuals pair off. The fear is not what I want to address. (Not at all.) It's the phrasing I'm taking issue with tonight. Wind up alone! This has a two main problems that I see:

It's passive language - this will happen to me, possibly whether I try to do anything about it or not. That sort of reads as defeatist, like there's no point in trying to find a partner. If you feel that way for real, okay, that's your prerogative and not my subject. If you look at what I just said and go "um, you got it wrong, pip, that is not how I feel," then maybe it is a language thing.
It's exceedingly vague. At what point does one throw in the towel and say, "That's it, that's the end; I've wound up alone"? Because I see some 30 year old people who say "I always thought I would [be partnered] by now, but now it's just too late." Guess what, everybody? It's not too late. My 86 year old grandmother has a boyfriend. If she's got 56 years on you, you should probably not be giving up now. Keep on trucking, don't put a deadline on yourself, and don't use language that implies a deadline. Not only will other people hear the deadline, but your subconscious mind will hear all about it, too.

Take it or leave it, just my two cents that I haven't even thought very hard about spending before throwing it out there.

*"wind up alone" is not limited to asexuals, but I hear it more there. also that aromantic asexuals say it the most. I am not saying their concerns are invalid or pretending to use statistics. just remarking on my unscientific observations.

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