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March's Carnival of Aces call for submissions is up at grasexuality - topic is Sexual Exploration.

Hoerrenda has posted February's Carnival of Aces post roundup - topic was Re/Presentation.

I've boosted fund_jcollins before, but now with specifics! I am offering:
beta reading/editing of fanfiction or original works - Starting bid: $3
Fiction to winners' specifications, multifandom or original - Starting bid: $5; Buy It Now: $20
5 crocheted hats, shipping limited to US & Canada, all on this post - Starting bid: $5; Buy It Now: $25, each hat

Other than these things, I have spent all day reading fic and the DSM intermittently. (okay, and the five hours i was out running errands and whatnot.) Is probably time to be slightly more productive. Or eat dinner. Yes, that one. FOOOOD.

love meme at dingsi's!

Have removed people who no longer exist or haven't updated in (an arbitrary amount of time approaching a year) and whatnot. If you think I removed you when I shouldn't have, let me know. (it is not unheard of for me to click the wrong box and accidentally remove someone awesome instead of the vacated journal directly above them in the list.) Comments screened.

So I found myself complaining about gleefully extolling the virtues of the Porn Compass this morning, which invariably ends in trying to convince someone to write purposeful porn compass fic. And this time I was almost successful! I was basically told that if I hosted some sort of fic-clichés challenge, I would get my porn compass fic. Seeing as how I also love clichés, it was pretty easy sell. So I'm hosting some sort of fic clichés challenge. Which I have never done before.

So let's muddle through this together, and let's also pretend it's comment fic because I don't have the time or energy to deal with anything else just now. Panfandom and whatnot; feel free to advertise and spread anywhere you want. The world needs more tropes and clichés: fact.

on dw (0 prompts, 0 fics) | on lj (1 prompt, 0 fics)

how to prompt: Leave a comment with FANDOM: TROPE in the subject line and any other sort of information you want in the body. (Pairing, more notes on the trope, whatever.) Any Fandom is a completely acceptable fandom. Any Trope is a completely acceptable trope. (Perhaps we shouldn't put both of them out there in the same prompt, though.)

how to answer a prompt: Write fic! Post it as a reply to the prompt. If it fits in a comment (or two), you can post it in a comment (or two). If it fits in more than two comments, please post it to your own journal or whatever and then leave a comment with a teaser and a link to the full fic. Your subject line or first line of the comment (followed by white space) should state any triggers or spoilers in your fic. If you write for an Any Fandom prompt, please be sure your subject line says which fandom you wrote in.

Anything else? I'm not putting a lot of thought into this, so let me know.

See, I was going to do a big Atlantis one like I do sometimes. Only then I used a ton of tiles just to make Rodney because ... I'm crazy. And then I was like "oh look Daniel Jackson just sitting in front of me, I'd better throw him in; anyway he was on an Atlantis!" And then I connected Evan Lorne to Daniel Jackson, and then I realized I could totally ship them if I only tried a little bit, and then it went from there. And got named Slash Me Sideways as I continued to make SG1/SGA crossover pairings that I could actually believe. (and then I was running low on tiles and high on justification for these pairings so this is what you get!)

( yes I am going to justify all these pairings SO THERE )

CARRIED AWAAAAAAAY. so easily. I love bananagrams. both properly and improperly.
(someone feel free to write some of this fic for me, okay.)

I was doing something fancy once but then I gave up and now I have a bunch of recs sitting in a drawer file and also another one today SO HERE, have some recs. Fandoms represented: Harry Potter, Sherlock BBC, Stargate Atlantis, Stargate SG-1, Doctor Who/Torchwood, In Plain Sight, Burn Notice, White Collar, X-Files, and maybe a little bit of Leverage if you squint.

Of Like Minds
Author: _rubber_chicken
Fandom: Harry Potter/Sherlock BBC crossover AU
Rating: PG
Author Summary/Notes: In which Harry has a problem, and Sherlock offers some unexpected advice. [extensive author's notes; see entry]
Rec Notes: I, too, noticed long ago that Cumberbatch's Sherlock sounded an awful lot like Alan Rickman. (I, too, was pleased by this realization.) I can't help but love the weirdness of this AU, not to mention how well it's set up for never explicitly setting it up. Small details like cell phones in Hogwarts just make it happen.

( more recs! recs from the past! )

(I can make up words if I want to. My zucchini says so.)
This post is pulling triple duty: gq fonsfaq delayed fill, this month's carnival of aces [gender], and a thing I just want to talk about anyway.

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This is a topic that's been stewing in my head for a very long time, and the answer just hit me last night - my gender and my sexuality have absolutely no direct correlation.

But they do have a pretty huge indirect correlation: it's not that I'm genderqueer, it's that I'm transqueer. It's not that my gender is summed up by gourmet campfire cooking and whittling crochet hooks, it's that my sex doesn't match up to that gender. If I have dysphoria with regards to my bits, then why would I be particularly eager to use them in the first place? And since my body never developed that particular desire, my brain never developed the "ooh pretty person" desires.

I've been on a lovely journey into my identity for the past few years, and I don't feel a need to go into all the gory details, but suffice to say: I can tell you today with relative certainty that if my trans* status were other than it is, I could become a sexual person. I'm not repulsed by sex as it is; I'm just beyond uninterested in purposeful dysphoria for the sake of another's happiness¹. I do not seek out sex because it is, more often than not, that exercise in purposeful dysphoria. Every now and then, there's a person with whom I'm more comfortable than usual - and every time that happens, it is because I know that the person thinks of me as a pip before a person with a set of typically-female genitalia. And it's because ou knows that I have that sex-triggered dysphoria. And it's because ou cares that I have that sex-triggered dysphoria. And it's because ou tries not to trigger it that ou can get further with that whole sex thing. I still won't seek it out, but it's a matter of comfort. I want to make you happy, but not at the cost of my own safety, be it physical or mental.

Back when the FONSFAQ was new, chibifukurou asked about separating sexual attraction, romantic attraction, and gender. I've talked about why it works better for me for my partner to separate gender from attraction(s). I've talked at other times about why it's nice when sexual and romantic attractions are separated. But how to separate? For me, it's easy. I don't experience sexual attraction², so there's nothing to make separating out romantic attraction (from sexual) difficult (though there's always the "romantic vs friendshipy" conversation). My gender doesn't influence my attractions, except that I don't feel the pressure to be 'straight' that many cis people seem to; perhaps this doesn't change to whom I am attracted, but it does make me much more open about it. And when I'm looking at a particular person, ou gender doesn't influence my feelings towards ou any more than ou hair color. Insofar as gender expression tends to be indicative of general personality traits, it's a handy basic indicator of compatibility - I am not often close to very feminine people³, though that's hardly a reason to flat ignore anything else we might have in common.

Gender identity and sexual orientation: they're complicated shit, you guys. They're irrevocably intertwined in ways people don't always realize about themselves, but they're completely separate ideas at the same time. It fascinates me to no end and I will never get tired of hearing people talk about their own experiences and thoughts. (And I'm fascinated to see how many nonbinary aces speak up this month.)



1. I do realize how ridiculous this sounds, in light of the people to whom I am not explicitly out. There's a difference, but don't ask me to explain it.
2. I get told off on this point regularly. It is very definition-dependent and way too complex to go into now or possibly ever. For our purposes, I don't experience sexual attraction at all ever.
3. Which is again related to gender dysphoria! Hooray!

Every so often (okay, it's been two years), I post this and see what sort of answers I get, because I'm easily fascinated. Comments are screened. Say whatever you like, reveal whatever personal information you'd like about anybody. Nobody's going to get offended. You might, however, be asked to clarify/provide examples if I have no idea how you reached a particular conclusion. If you don't want to answer all the questions, they're arranged in order of importance. Thanks in advance!

1. What you think about me, how you perceive me, what you think my personality generally is
2. How you (would) refer to me, if/when you talk about me - name and/or descriptor(s)
3. Approximately how long we've known each other
3. If you primarily think of me as an internet or meatspace friend (doesn't apply to everyone; skip if you think the answer is totally obviously 'internets')
4. Just for fun: If you can remember meeting* me, please tell the story (mostly for comparison's sake); if not, tell a story from early in our relationship
*meeting: a word which here can apply to real life, internets, both, neither, whatever. the first "real" contact we had or just the first time you saw me around.

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Related:
I have a curious. This poll is completely anonymous; while anyone can see which answers go together, nobody can tell who gave which answers. Which means that you should not be afraid of offending me, because (well, for one, i try not to get offended, but also) I won't know what you said.



(yes, lj people, i do want you to pop over and do it on dw. it's so easy. and everyone likes clicky boxes.)

People have a hard time reconciling "asexual" and "kinky" with regards to me, so here, let me explain some. This has been created in fits and spurts and thus will not necessarily come out in a logical or connected manner, so bear with me. Most of this is hard for me to put into words.

( But I'll tuck it away for your convenience. )

(also: textedit just decided that 'fics' should autocorrect to 'finches' because i read birds.)